Rebelling Against Your To do's

I am a rebellious person and so whenever I write a todo list I often hear the inner voice "No I don't want to do that today" and another voice comes "That is okay do on another day, when I know I have no other commitments and I will find time, to get it done, no matter how much my rebellious thoughts come through". 

Whenever I plan my meals for the week, I hear the critic ask, "Are you really going to want that?" and so I do a meal plan but not one that is set in stone, because I feel like running a mile and having over processed meals and working around other tasks and my son. I am currently homeschooling and my son rebels against learning so I work around his interests, because I know he won't try to debate against it; along with giving time and make sure he has a drink, water or milk, to help make him feel comfortable and tell him before hand of what he will be learning each day, because many children especially with Autism, ADHD and other difficulties, any surprises, he will start to refuse and have to try to scrape him off the sofa, for him to do it. 

I love our morning walks and I hear the rebellious voice say, "No don't go for a walk" or more questioning the idea of a walk, but I really enjoy it and I remind myself of, how good it is, to be out early and exploring with homeschooling and really kicks starts the day. 

This week we are swimming and find it so refreshing, but get anxious about getting there on time. I hate being late and rushing around and can hear the critic voice, trying to make feel like I don't want to. I like to get up in the mornings early, so I have time to read, have a cup of tea and get dressed and feel calm and since doing this, my thoughts and fears are a lot calmer. I enjoy planning but then I get the morning jitters and my mind starts to think otherwise and will tell it "No" the inner voice and always get to the Leisure centre, where we go swimming, and we get so much out of it. 

Family time, for me is a must because it is good to share the work. My mum for example helps with Henry's learning along with my step dad and Henry's dad. It helps with the rebellious thoughts and the pressures fade, because I get anxious when trying to do tasks alone, like homeschooling and it helps me with my teaching, to help my son. I am building my knowledge at the same time. I will watch some training videos to work towards my own ambitions and do different courses and this helps me not rebel by build my interests and focus on what is important. I like doing tasks not on my to do list and take breaks between each task and not letting my rebellious nature get in the way. 

Many thanks for reading,

Carrie X